finally have computer back and part of my brain...
Hope evryone is doing o.k.
Hope I'm still welcome
Hard months, very hard and am just so freaked out today.
well most days ...reALLY!!
BUT, How can I think 3 different ways at the same time?
I'm upset/mad with a cause, but part of me wants to be so nice but never wins that, and yet another part wwants to have fun and rarly wins that and so the mad sticks till I'm sad and depressed and not know what to do with self. grrr, why how can I know part of me are struggling to do other things and that they shouldn't win cause that's not right AND YET wish they did so I could have been a part that was way more likes but stuck in the unlike state of nothing ness. Did that make sense?
K, let me try one more time Honestly
My husband says things dogmatic(neg flare)
I'm mad (((((DEFENCIVE)))))
I then think ....I't over
But part of me thinks I want him, NOW to hug and dress in the new jacket I bought him
But no, at the same time, I feel I should just go to bed cause it's all I can do! Nothing makes sense
Nobody is screAMING AT ME INSIDE
sO I feel I'm maybe just moody and not smartt
grrr, there I go again
well, Hope to rammble more oftyen nowws whith yous