Why is reality so tiring? I have never felt so demotivated in my life but I do not have depression. Is it the lithium? I feel that I have been fighting the good fight for 15 years and I am so tired now. My son is 13 and I feel that I have been asleep for most of it. But he is a great kid and we have a good relationship so why do I look at him sometimes and shake my head in amazement and ask myself "who raised you, u beautiful person?" Who am I?

I am in the process of writing a book and it is like pulling teeth yet I know it is life or death to get this story on paper. It will ultimately be my salvation. Think I'm having a mid-life mental health crisis. I'm only 35!