Hi confused and welcome to PC...

A very intersting first post. You included alot.

The above quote is curious.

Your faith is diminished because you can control the outcome?

First,,I think that might be a bit presumptuous,,,some pros are real good at what they do and understand this aspect of therapy quite well.

Secondly,,say you go to a mechanic and ask them to fix your car. You know the brakes are bad,,but you tell them to fix your battery. He checks your battery and tells you it is not failing. You tell him to fix it anyway. He does. He charges you,,you pay.

You leave with bad brakes.

What's wrong with this story?

With care,

Lenny