chrise, i'm sorry you are feeling so low.  and kudos for trying to do some positive things like walking, etc. i know for myself when i'm down i muster up some hidden energy and go help someone else in need. i can't fully explain this but i do know that when i take the focus off me for a moment it tends to revive me. it could be in the form of helping others through volunteer work or just a neighbor that is elderly and can't get out much, for examples. i hope you have a better day tomorrow...and don't forget that we care about you and don't mind at all your talking about how you feel. 
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
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