I'm fed up.
I'm stupidly depressed and I'm sick of it.

Gonna move everything out of my bedroom today so I can decorate (part of the 'new me' thing) Can't face it though... I'll find lots of 'john things' and I can't do with triggers right now... bad enough

I haven't even got the energy to explain why I feel so depressed... apart from the fact that my hands are shaking so its hard to type... and I think my hands are shaking 'cause I don't eat.... but last night... proud of me for this.. I had a starter, main and desert and ate the lot! Didn't have breakfast or lunch though, but even so... that was a lot for me.

tut I wish i could disappear, so depressed, so much pain