Not very good at saying the right things... I know what you mean about hesitating when posting personal stuff-- I'm painfully private. It's good you posted though-- I think it does help to reach out, however hard that may be for some of us.

You said you don't want any pity... well, I'm just reaching out to a person that helped me the one time I tried the chat room, made me feel important and showed me around. I will always appreciate you for that- you are a very kind person I can tell, and it sucks that this has happened to you.

Please know that I'm here, you're not alone and if you need to vent/talk-- you can PM me anytime. I hope you take some time to nurture yourself- take a walk, watch an uplifting movie, post some more here-- something that will give you comfort.

Thinking of you,
Mandy