thanks again ((muffy))) and (((purple))))

i want to feel like you muffy, that they do love me... they have always said so and i guess to me it means that when the chips are down they will always be there, helping me as needed.... they have never closed the doors completely, in fact my mom is the opposite, always welcoming me in and making arrangements so i feel welcome to stay as long as i like... but it is just so hard to witness what she does to herself in ways of poor health decisions.. i'm not talking just skipping her juice here... she really needs some help and i do everything i can to be there for her but she doesnt do enough for her own good...

i dont want her to suddenly become a saint or anything, just think about some of her choices and how procrastinating matters of her health are not helping at all....

hugs to all of you who are dealing with this in some way yourselves...