Happy about what? The fact that I've got so many people helping me?
But the performance, yes, is one of my songs.. But it's assessed and it's a song that I barely know anyway..

There's an assignment i'm already overdue on and just.. I don't have the time at all or the concentration..

I guess I don't want to have to tell all my teachers that reason, you know? My tutor knows about it and that seems bad enough as it is, you know? But I guess my performance teacher would understand.. I did say I might not be able to do it. We'll see..

I'm just so stressed and it's all building up, getting worse and I don't know what to do.. I saw my GP today and although we had a good serious talk, we had a giggle at the same time and it was so nice to talk to him about it. He understands so, so much..

I just feel like I'm not good enough.. For anyone.. The music industry, people on my course at college, Connor, people at home..

The housing staff here have been looking into a new placve to put me, more based around support for mental health.. I just think it'd make me worse.. I feel like I'm going to be put into a mental institute.. I hate it.. I don't want to go, I'm used to my workers here, the people here, even if I do want to get away from the *****ing here, it'd just make me withdrawn and I'd never talk to people about my problems.. I'd stop eating, I'd feel even worse than I do now.. I couldn't live with other people like me, I'd feel too uncomfortable with it..

I can't settle down again.. All I need is the space of my own flat, support from time to time, my own rules, everything. That is what will help this depression to ease. They don't get it..