The crisis team are coming to see me tomorrow and I think... If I talk to them about it, I'll break down.. I need to.. I need to show them that I really don't want this anymore.. Just sitting here typing this is making me cry..

I am trying not to let the record start playing again, but.. It's so hard when everything's going wrong.. Like I said to a friend..
why is so much ***** happening to me recently making me feel like I'm failing at everything? first Emily, then college, then hospital, then Connor and his family, then college again, then this. Home.

That's exactly how I feel and it makes me want to cry my heart out so much and the one song that keeps me going is:

and:

It's such an inspiration. He is an inspiration and he's so amazing.. I hope I can meet him one day and just have one of those hugs

But anyway.. I need to go.. Get these songs finished..

Plus a friend wants me to sing them to her... Over the phone.. Lol.

In case anybody wants to hear what I was like 3 years ago,

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