i know i need to move on from my past relationship but i keep holding on and constantly thinking about her / everything we had and everything i thought we would have in the future. 6 weeks ago she wanted to marry me and now we dont even talk. i have to try and try not to call her text her contact her in any way because i know she wont respond and that will just hurt me more. i never thought this would happen. she was my best friend and i thought i was hers. i know i have to let go but theres part of me that would rather hold on to the feelings i have for and be miserable. i dont want to go back to who i was before i met her. i was very closed off just had fun and never really got to close to women. i had relationships but i never let anyone get to close. so im afraid if i try to close her out im going to close that door again and never really have a happy relationship,wich is truly what i want. am i just not ready to let go? i feel like i need to for my own mental health but just cant seem to. i know theres no magic answer