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i am supposed to be taking action to find my husband and my self a couples counselor. he will not accept anyone my counselor knows because he blames her for what he considers my "lack of progress". i consider that without her help i might be dead right now. he is letting me choose a counselor, female probably, because he knows men tend to frighten me more than women (truly people frighten me - it is no longer focused on just men). i am too scared to pick up a phone and make a call. i am almost as scared of him coming home to ask if i've made calls and have to say, no, i did not, i chickened out! between the two fears my head is hurting more and more and my stomach hurts. i can't get past the fear yet to make the calls and i feel so bad about me for not doing the job. i am scared. we are scared. it all feels so bad.
leslie and pixies
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