I've been like this for too long. Way to tired to keep fighting. Nothing seems to be changing. I keep doing and going day to day only to feel the same. The hole is just tooo deep. I cant see the top. There is no light and its very cold. I dont see myself getting out soon. I'm so messed up. My head wont stop and i dont know if im making sense. I really cant go on like this. My strength has been drained. There is nothing left. I cant............