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Right now i'm in a three-way relationship that i feel confused about. i am a submissive woman, and have a Sir who lives about 2 hours away. X is his submissive also, but she is Dominant to me. She lives about 5 miles from me. This is a complex threesome, but my guess is that any time you have three people in a relationship it has more challanges... and with one partner being at a distance this makes it even more difficult.
My Sir and X have a sexual relationship, but X doesn't want Sir and me to be sexual. We did finally discuss this last night, and Sir agrees that he will abide by X's desires in this. What was difficult for me about this is that i was writing Sir e-mails that were sexual in nature, at his command. i did tell him two days ago that i felt i shouldn't do this, because X had made it clear to me that i was not to be sexual with him, but he became stern with me about that and reminded me that he was the Dominant of our relationship and that i was to obey him, so i did.
Sir is here for the weekend, so when we sat down to discuss this last night we were all at the same table. They told me that they have decided that Sir will find a "nice submissive male" to meet my sexual needs.
My feelings are so mixed up about this! i love my Sir as my Master, friend, and long for him to also be my lover! i am not bi by nature, but Sir makes me be sexual with X on a regular basis. X tolerates this, but it isn't her thing. i love X as my Mistress and friend, and do not want to do anything to hurt her!
Still.... i want to sleep with Sir! i get more depressed when i am locked out of the bedroom. i feel like i don't deserve to be loved.
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