(((((((( twilight )))))))))

After everything that has happened to you as a child, no wonder you have that anger boiling under the surface. I would be suggesting therapy to deal with the trauma rather than a quick fix anger management course.

Have a chat with the psych nurse, or even show her the post you have written. You are out of the battle field now, but as you said, with your sister the trauma has stayed with her also.

You don't need to be carrying all that baggage round with you now, ask about finding a good T.

Let me know how you get on.