i sent an email to my bf whom I care for very much, that I have thoughts of self-harming. I feel really embarrassed about it because it was last night when i sent it and I woke up this morning wondering why I did it. I'm afraid he'll think I'm crazy. I was feeling really lonely and I feel like he is the only one that cares for me. I've never felt this cared for before and I told him htis in the email as well. We've been dating 7 months and now I feel like I might ahve ruined everything