OK i don't really know how to start this but here goes. Ive always coincided myself to be anti social. i dont get along with none of my family due to the fact that i have had a bad up bringing, i also don't have have many friends and most of the time seem to lie to them to get out of social events and basically just to get away from them. all through my childhood was bullied. i have lived on my own 4 the last 6 yrs and in that time other than work i don't talk to any1 and when im at work if i don't have to talk to them i wont. i have thought about suicide and have committed many acts of self harm. and now because of the fact that i have just been promoted at work Ive found my self suffering alot more because of the fact that most of the job depends on socializing with them. now that this is now effecting my job and my life because this is bringing me down and making me stressed about it. i decided to look it up on the internet and to see if i could find something to help me with this. that's how i happened upon this site and this page. so i decided to post a thread to see what other people think and to help me with my current situation. thanks martyn