I dont know what to say. My head is in a really bad place. I try to keep it busy but my head just wont stop turning. I wish i could turn it off. Ive been soooo depressed that i feel like im never going to get out. I feel like im in quick sand. Im being swallowed up. Im hanging on to peoples ropes and ladders but im not moving. I keep going day to day doing things. But, why??
My kids dont appreciate it. Neither does my husband. I just started to trust my therapist a little and because of going in the partial program, which didnt even start yet, i need to switch therapists. Im rambling, im sorry. Nothing is right. My head is not in a good place. And i dont see it getting any better.