Hey everyone, speaking of being down, like to the DOWN point, lol. I have so much going on right now, at one point in the last couple months, Iv'e went so far as to suspect my husband of cheating, or attempting too. But his scape-goat is, " oh, your'e acting crazy, It's your Bipolar " . And I feel enormously stressed because I don't know if I am on the right track, like is he ? Or am I acting crazy. But even when I know for sure that he is wrong about something else, he just lies, and says I'm acting crazy. So I have a huge trust issue with him, and most of my friends he would encourage me to cut-off for reasons that suited him. Remind you , we have no sittter, so technically he wanted me in the house with the kids so he can hang out with the guys , and usually I cut-off the friends for some MANIC reason maybe. And some for good reasons. So I feel like I am not on point with myself, and he's the beneficiary from it. I hope someone understands what I just said. But yeah, Keirelle's story is a prime example of my existance. I remember calling off work one day, because I wanted to hang out at home and be sad that day. I believe I drank wine and smoked cigarettes, and cried periodically that day. When it was time to pick my daughter up from daycare, and my husband to come home. I redressed as if I had went to work and in a weird way, to me I had gotten it all out. I felt pretty good the remainder of the day.