Ginniesky,

You will be in my thoughts for sure. I have gone through this same feeling. The only real advice I can give is what has soothed me- when I start to feel disconnected from god, I try to spend some extra time outdoors. Winter is upon us but even when the weather isn't great outside, I like to be outside because I can experience god showing me the truth of things through nature. It reminds me that creation's beautiful gifts surround us daily, it reminds me that god's presence and love is always around for everyone, and it reminds me that everything in life is a cycle, and things won't always be so dreary. I am sure you will get through this soon.

-E