(((((((((((((( puffyprue )))))))))))))))))))

I am sorry that you are having a hard time. Not being able to find the words does not make you stupid, it sounds like you are a little overwhelmed, I get this way too. Have you tried to write down some of your feeling to let a bit of it out? When you are writing it doesn't matter if it makes sense, just write how you feel and what is on your mind, there is no wrong way to do it. I find typing it out on my computer and then deleting it afterwards helps me immensely.