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"Normal" people are appalled and wonder how I can talk about such things so matter of factly. Is it a self esteem issue, that I can't think that way? Is it feeling like I don't deserve to be treated better? Is it that I know people who were treated WORSE and so don't think anything of what happened to me?

While I was in the ha-ha house in November, in one group we were talking about anger, and I told the group about having to get in between my parents because they had knives at each other's throats. People literally gasped. It completely freaked them out. To me? Eh. I don't see the horror. It always surprises me when somebody else does.

Am I just weird, or is there some dusty psychological theory that explains this? :-) Or is it just an extreme case of dissociation?

So whatup with this, do you think?

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I think dissociation explains it. Also, a possible "psychological theory" may be alexithymia, which symptoms occur in many PTSD patients. People who display symptoms of alexithymia may appear to not have any emotions or feelings when talking about past trauma. Recalling "traumatic memories are highly emotional. To permit any feelings will also invite negative emotions into awareness," writes Dr. Glenn R. Schiraldi, THE POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER SOURCEBOOK. There seems to be a lot of research available online correlating dissociation and alexithymia.