crying, I add my welcome also...
Please don't be so hard on yourself. You are a worthwhile human being going through a rough time. It does not decrease your value or make you less of a person.
I also hope you are seeing a therapist, or a p doc. You mentioned taking meds...perhaps you can check in with the doc prescribing them. It's possible they may need adjusted--jmo, of course.

Please let us know how you are doing, crying.
Cap