((stefanie))
I am so sorry you are having such a rough time, but I'm glad you found us.
Feeling overwhelemed is one of the hardest feelings in the world, isn't it? What worked for me was doing my best to focus on what was hurting me the most...for me, it was anger, and I had to address that before I could go any further.
My thoughts are with you as you take these first steps of healing.
Cap