((ktbug))

It can be really difficult to be vulnerable when we have trauma in our past. So, please be kind to yourself...it sounds like you are doing some hard internal work and it sounds like you're doing a good job with a very difficult situation.

Perhaps you can start off by talking to him in a general way. Like 'I had a very difficult childhood, and I am still working on understanding it all.' You do not have to share any details to begin with, just test the waters and slowly build trust. Take it one step at a time.

IMHO, openness and honesty is important for a good relationship. If he can't accept you, ALL of you, then he does not deserve to be your partner.