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Originally Posted by Rhapsody
 
What you are saying makes perfect sense and I think writing in your journal or drawing will help you release your sadness/emptiness in a positive way.
I often felt like I had a piece of me is missing when I had unresolved wounds left in me from the past... are you in counseling? |
Yes, I am seeing a T right now. I just started last month and haven't brought any of this up yet. I keep telling myself that I don't want to go back, but every week I go back. Part of me thinks it's not going to help me get those missing pieces back, but another part of me does not want to keep living like this, so I guess thats why I keep going back...I want to and need to get out of this role I have been playing for soooo long. I feel like I am carrying a child inside of me that I just can't shake...
Now I just have to talk myself into taking medication. I am terrified of taking meds 1. I have body image issues and I am afraid of the side effects 2. What if the meds don't work, then what? I have probably been like this most of my life what if it takes another 20 years to get better? what if i never get better (that's my anxiety talking...I am learning to recognize that now)?... And I don't know how to explain this to my T. Im not used to speaking up and asking for what I need or asking for help. I like to do things for myself....
sigh...I feel like im complaining or whining...
sorry ( i tend to apologize a lot...sorry...I don't know why I do it)
Now that everyone is sleep, I am going to go meditate...i need to clear my mind and relax for work. thank goodness it's a short week.