just want to add that every teenage girl at some point thinks she is the only one never to have done something or only one with her problem, whatever it is, and it is just about never true.

I don't mean to be dismissive of you because I honestly remember being your age and how screwed up I felt. But the thing is that teenagers feel weird and freakish all the time, and they don't realize how many other people there are that have felt or do feel like them. How can they know? they have very little experience of the world. they haven't lived through these years and then talked to their now-adult friends about just how hard and weird it was.

so just try to take my word for it. you will not feel this way forever, and people will want you and probably there are plenty who are glad to have you right now.

also i didn't get my first kiss till I was 15 either. i have a nice husband now.