Yesterday, sitting in my car I heard The Cure "Just Like Heaven" and before I could even think tears started rolling--and wouldn't stop. I usually don't listen to music that could start the tears rolling, but my daughter was in the car and I was reading. Of course I didn't turn it; when I hear stuff like that the ridiculous part of me takes over and says "you deserve to feel the pain associated with these memories because if you hadn't done what you did, you would still be with S, so sit here and listen and cry." My first husband and high school sweetheart S used to hold my face in his hands and sing that song to me alllll the time. Since we are in contact (and have a relationship I can't describe without destroying my whole day), I emailed him the lyrics and said "I cried". He emailed me back this morning and said, "Listening to The Cure made you cry? Why?" Obviously a memory that was special to me had no meaning for him. Guess I deserved that one too.