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Originally Posted by mary39
I'm scared that i'm eating too much, but i really don't know, i might be eating too little, i don't know what 'normal' is anymore.
Today i had:
* 1 Orange
* 1 Bowl of chicken stirfry (a very small amount of chicken in it though, and vegetables were capsicum, pineapple, mushroom, zuchinni, and pumpkin, all fresh. & the bowl was full.)
* 2 Chocolate biscuit wafer sticks (100 calories)
* Lots of water
and i'm done for today.
Is this too much? I'm sorry i know this sounds really stupid but i really don't know anymore, it seems to me as if ANYTHING is too much.
Is what i'm eating classified as normal eating behaviour?
I really am trying  It just feels so much. |
Mary
I was 12 when I got my eating disorder I guess it started out alot like yours not sure if it was THAT bad or not. Well I went YEARS without anyone reaching out to me bla bla bla. Then When I thought that it was still no big deal I started to not be able to eat without throwing up passing out. so on and so forth I wanted everyone to see my inner pain by my outter body well eventually that became my reality because you become so engrossed woth your ED that you don,t have a reality. I am 35 I presumed that I snuck by with Anorexia undetected until one day my doc decided to give me a bone scan, My hips are at the age of a 99 and my spine is 102 years old brittle. kick in the *** for someone that runs,Kayaks , loves to horseback ride. Anyway,people did SEE my pain the people that you want to hurt notice but they don't take resposibility. That's your job. They get upset, for a liitle while but they can't change you. noone can make this better. There's only you and tha's only if YOU care. You can talk forever but i'm warning you and everyone out there I've coded, lost 4 friends.If you think that maybe your not O.k your not get real help, keep on trying until someone listens and don't give up on yourself.