Why's it that's all I ever seem to do these days?? It's stupid..

Today I cried because I just couldn't play my guitar in the way that I wanted to. I felt like a rubbish musician because I couldn't write any lyrics.. Then watching my sister playing live on youtube, I noticed that she plays no more chords on the guitar than I do and she's been signed.. So that boosted me a bit..

But then I cried because I looked at myself and felt fat.. Then because I just felt like I'd failed at everything..

But at least Katie saved me from being moved out.. She told my key worker that she would not let me go there because it's a horrible place to be and they should move me into more independant living, give me more space and have that support there for when I needed it..

Which made my jaw drop!! She had taken the words right out of my mouth! I couldn't believe how she'd said exactly what I'd been saying to Connor just half an hour earlier..

So that's a good thing, one less stress.. College work is still sucky.. I can't do it.. So I guess my tutor will have to wait until nearer Christmas to get it.. Better late than never..