Hello
I found this site by researching the Sexual additions files
I am in so much distress over things that are going on in my life right now
I just need somewhere to go to talk about all this
This guy I have been involved with for the last 4-5years is in trouble for a situation that accorded 11 years aggo
He is being accused of agrevated sexual assualt of 2girls
Their is a whole story here that is too much to get into, but I want to believe him, and knowing the circumstances from back then, I did believe him
However, now I have this big Knot in my stomach
I found pictures of explicite nature on his computer
Some were pictures of him masturbating
Others were pictures of girls
Ii went to check his mail and the phone bill was there
His phone service has been shut off because of lack of payment
This is not the first time his phone was shut off
I have helped him out financially to try and get him back on his feet
I was curious on the calls made to the same number in california
I called the number and it turns out to be a Man Hole gay chat line
I am so sick over all of this,

I just needed to get this out, but it is so very painful
I can't function, I have no ambitions to life anymore
How do I move on, how do I still support him,
I just don't have it in me
I know that he is a sick man with probably a sexual disorder
But I don't want to believe it, I guess I am in denial

I am crying so hard right now, and it is hard to even type this
So I will end with this

Thank You for just being there