That's a start. The crazy thing is I don't want anyone NOT anyone to FEEL sorry for me. The real problem for me is for all of these years that I've done this I just want this gone all of the pain that I was trying to control with starving myself I wish I could just have learned to talk. I have a lot of baggage but now that I'm ready to own it. It owns me I tried so long worried about food I forgot to live, now I just don't know how to. I have been spending my life coping with some huge stuff with my head up my butt. Now I feel like I'm tring to walk before I crawl. It will consume you. Please all of you look inside of yourself statistic say that you probably won't get better. The longer you wait the worse it gets. Love yourself and this truely is the key, you,d NEVER treat or wish tjis on some you love look in the mirror. REALLY look in the mirror, one time for the next 7 days say and raech down deep, even if it's hard. SAY. I will love you today like iwanted to be loved, like I need to be loved, because I love you. Can you do that? And anyone else out there reading this PLEASE REPLY