Yes, she really is, even after only a couple of weeks knowing me! She works with self harmers though, so it's no surprise ot be honest.

The song that I linked people to in my post the other day, is being played at a friend's funeral today.. Surprising how I haven't really thought about it.. Just that sudden feeling of guilt crops up a little because I couldn't stop him.. He crashed his car into a wall.. He'd been drinking and had knocked another friend over, luckily, she's still with us.. But he's not.

The song's about war, and he served in the war in Iraq, so it suited the occasion very well and I feel very.. Appreiciative of that song now and the fact that I was able to sing it.

I don't feel as guilty as I could do, which is weird.. But I guess I'm just starting to learn that I can't take the blame and guilt for everything.. No matter how easy it is to blame myself, I know it's the wrong thing to do.