I can relate. I find myself obsessing on holidays past, and the here and now. One minute I am all in the mood then out of it again. I have had my tree up since October and Cant stop rearranging the furniture.

Your are not alone in the daze of the holidays. Seems like before we know it, will be time for the new year and all that entails. I hope things get more clear and you begin to feel better soon.

I am sure you are very welcome around here think same at times, just a lot of forums and many people i think everyone goes through that worry of not being welcome. I am glad to have read your thread as I have just not read any threads by you as i Can recall, and am glad to meet you. krzyk101