Oh Sweetie, You need a big hug right now. You are in denial from what you are saying and feeling but that is normal. You have just had a huge shock and it will take some time to come to terms with all this. Give yourself some time and keep seeking help.

You have seen all the signs now and he is sick. I understand not knowing if you have it in you to support him. That is up to you. He needs serious help and even then, things of this nature...well I will be the first to say I couldn't stand by him.

We are here and we are listening. We can offer support, compassion and understanding. Keep coming here and talking to us. There are alot of great people here with good hearts.

You DONT need to rush into any decisions or even work on a plan of action just yet. Let things absorb first and come to terms with what you are dealing with. Decisions and action can be taken when you are prepared.

I can't even express how my heart goes out to you right now. I am sending very warm hugs to you.
Heidu

The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it.
John Ruskin