- thankyou all for your support - it made a difference knowing i could come here and vent and say whatever was in my head in an effort to try and let it go - its over now for another year and i am just incredibley sad - I went and saw the staff psych yesterday about the locker thing and couldnt sit and talk to him - had to keep pacing - must have looked even more crazy than i am (if that's possible ) - Im exhausted now and sad because I thought somehow after the annniv it would be over - dumb I know! - I realised that even as I was thinking it - but part of me wanted to wake up and it to be over - totally unrealistic and belonging in cloud cookoo land! - well its not over and I guess i just have to deal with it - I just want what we all want - some peace - hey the font changed? how did i do that? anyway thankyou everyone and Cap the time zone thing gets me too! -take care

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