Hi Earthmama,

If you have to hate someone hate the abusers not you - it makes me so angry that people are out there hurting others and damaging them - I wish I could put them all on an island in the middle of a shrakinfested sea and tell them they had to swim to get out of there!

I was often scared when I went to therapy - knowing that i was going to have to talk about things that i just wanted to forget - that i just wanted to be over and done with - but they keep coming back (that's what I found anyway) until you deal with them - you sound like you have a good therapist - i am glad of that for you - that helps a lot - I saw the staff psyche yesterday and had to walk for 10 mins before because i was too scared to go in - I think they understand this - tell hyour T exactly how you are feeling - I think the T's office should be a safe zone where you can say what you truly feel no matter how stupid or mad it sounds - you are cleaning all the crap out of your wound and allowing the healing to begin - you can do this - we are with you.

I can see it hurts so bad at the moment but things can get better - hang in there - we are all thinking of you P7