((((((((((((((( kendyll )))))))))))))))))))

I'm so sorry.

You're right; you didn't deserve that.

We should never have to feel bad for self-care in these types of situations.

I so understand what you're saying as I've been there to different degrees many times...damned for even attempting any "me" stuff. How dare I, really?

I'm learning, though, as with many things that it's not really about me then, either. These ppl that down me for it, aren't used to it and don't like it. They want my focus on them and it has to mess with there warped senses of security to see me care for myself...because if I care for myself too much, I might notice how much they hurt and take advantage of me...risking what they hold dear.

Now, of course this sort of thing happens in normal situations as well (like with hubby) and it doesn't carry that sort of meaning. However, when the "normal" happens, it can mix with the parallel battle I fight with birth family that carries all I said before. It gets so polluted sometimes.

I'm just so sorry it happened even if it was on the more "normal" end of it (which I'm not saying it was because I don't know), and pray it's some better now for you.

Just know I understand and that you're not alone in this kind of thing.

KD