I've just lost Everything within the last year as far as possessions vehicle etc. and so all of my money has gone toward replacing my clothing and getting a car and I,ve moved some distance across the country. Takes a while to find full time work. I'll be applying for some medical assistance soon, maybe can get a little help from them. I have done a timeline of sorts of my life and it seems there are some sort of traumas or major upheavals in my life every few years. Molested @ 5, parents divorce @ 8, w/ mom 1 yr.,next to dad 2yrs, sent on vacation w/grparents & dad had moved me back to moms w/out telling me while I wasd gone & disappeared, started skipping school @ 12,( school had couselor visit w/ me 1hour a week for a while then stopped it and when I kept asking to see her again I was told that I was too old), started running away finally pulled into the system and put in juvenile facility @ 13, out @ 14, sent across country to dad(my request) but couldn't stop running away, ended up on sunset strip @ 14 turning tricks and shooting up pharmeceutical speed. That's just the beginning of the condensed version. I do understand that it's a miracle that I'm even alive not to mention that I look and act mostly normal. I did manage to get a college degree even. It's just such a mountain of crap to go thruogh, and I;ve only had a few months of therapy as an adult. The whole thing is almost like some made for tv drama. CANT BELIEVE THIS IS MY LIFE! And then I wonder what's the point of surviving all of it if I can't get it together and accomplish what I know I'm capable of?