((((((((((((( silversparrow )))))))))))))))))

You are not pathetic.
We care very much for you here, please know that we love you. I read your other post and I don't think it makes you a hypocrite, the road of healing has many steps some of them are backwards, it is all a part of healing.
I am really not looking forward to thanksgiving, however making a list of things I am thankful for did help me in that department, remember we can be thankful for things even though other things suck. My T insisted on reminding me that I did have a choice in whether or not I celebrated thanksgiving for it seems like I don't, I am trying to remember that I only have to make it through on day of this.