I am crying harder now, the sun is officaly up, and I can hear the cars pass by my house, just another day, just another day.
I feel so lost anymore, I hurt so much, the pain and neglected feeling is always there, underlying, no matter how happy I am or how content I am it's there. I just..so many emotions, anger, hurt, sadness, a certain amount of peace.

There goes another car, it's just another day, just another day, Thanksgiving is just another day...I just have to breathe and do my best, right? Day's can't hurt people...today is Wensday, tomorrow Thanksgiving...and all I have to do is breathe right? I am here, laying in my bed, with my doggies, and lol one of them is snoring...
a day can't hurt me.

I am sorry I am all over the place anymore..........................
I am sorry, I am sorry

I just..I guess I should lay down for a bit...I don't know..
I dont' think I can cry anymore. none of this is making any sense....