(((((((((((((((( kiya ))))))))))))))))))))))

Good for you for letting your T know how you feel about the situation, that is a big step towards healing. I have found that after taking a risk I feel so much better once it is over, either you will be able to resolve the problem or gain a new understanding of the issue at hand.
I can really see why this situation is bothering you, I don't think I would like being a part of a clinic like that, the process would really get to me.