(((ginniesky)))
first off, dont be embarassed. nobody heres gonna judge you and im sure many women (or men) have been through similar things.
tbh i havent really been through what you have.. i was assaulted by a friends brother.. and i havent had a completely happy relationship since.. because i took whoever would have me. i felt disgusting. i didnt know these guys well in the first place. i got hurt and i can say id be a million times happier if i didnt rush into things.. i dont count them as real boyfriends now, because i didnt really like them.
just make sure you know who you're with. know that theyre not in it for sex or to screw with you. get to know them. take things slowly. if you feel you can, tell him about whats happened, or tell him that youve had some bad stuff happen to you and you need to take it slow. if hes worth it, he'll understand.
hope it gets better for ya hun. it will.

x