I need to go get my medicene refilled, it is part of the reason my moods are allover the place, it's just hard to go and do it. I don't feel like I deserve it, just, I want to be hated, it makes things easier, I hate myself, I can't comprhend why others care, yet at the same time all I want is for others to care, I get so tired that irl I am the caregiver all the time and noone ever takes care of me, I take care of my mom, my dad, I play parent to my sister.
God, this is going nowhere, this therad, I am just babbling everywhere, I am being selfish, other people need ya'lls support more, I am just...damnit I am crying again...

Ya'll are to kind, to gentle people, it touches me deeply to see how there are still such wonderful people in this world, I just..I am lost again, I find the path only to fall off of it, I find my wings and fall, I just..I am a sad sad little bird...