okay, so after spending most of my day, crying and hiding from the world, besides going and running errands for my mom and helping her bake some. I have come up with a plan to get through the rough patch at Thanksgiving.

The first dinner is the hardest one, it is the one where all my triggers are at, if I can get through that the rest of the day is smooth sailing. I am going to concentrate on the rest of the day and how much fun that is going to be.
I will take my favorite feather with me and keep it in my pocket, to make me feel safe.
I will get up early that morning and just spend time being nice to myself, having some coffee, doing yoga, taking a walk, maybe working on my latest photography project, a series I am doing on trees called Etz Chaim.

I will take a shower, get dressed up, just so I will feel good. I will help my parents with the turkey and maybe play a board game with my sister.

When it comes time to go to the noon dinner, I will keep calm, keep reminding myself that I am in the present, the past can't hurt me, I don't have to talk on the phone to my abuser if I don't want to, I am an adult, I am no longer a child, he can't hurt me anymore. I will work through any panic with the breathing techniques I have learned in yoga...

All I have to do is make it through noon, and then I will be okay, we will go to my favorite aunt's house at 5pm, and after that I am going with my two closests friends to my old art teacher's house for thanksgiving with her and her family, dessert and rockband lol.

I just have to rember to breathe, and that I am safe, and to keep all of ya'lls postive and kind words with me.

(((((((((((((((((((((Everyone)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))