Hi T.T.

I'm new here, so I'm not 100% sure of the protocol with these postings. But your post was the first that I read that I was compelled to reply to. First, you're too young to be dealing with a situation like this. Although being only 22 myself, it's not easy dealing with a burden like that in your everyday life. I understand what it is like to have a hard family life but in a different capacity than the one you're dealing with. The choices and mistakes your family makes are no reflection of who you are as an individual. You were brought into this world for a reason, and you don't deserve to endure pain from family, especially your mother. Your mother could very well be displacing her own fears, anxieties, and disappointments on you, but that does not make it right. I, too, would suggest seeking help from a counselor at school. If you don't want to mix home life with school life, you may want to ask him/her to refer you to a local clinic in the area that can serve as a healthy outlet for you rather than internalizing your feelings and taking them out on yourself. I am also here for you, and you are not alone. Please let me know if there is something I can do to help.