Thread: I need advise!
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Old Nov 27, 2008, 02:23 AM
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I am at a crossroads in my life right now. Since I entered college three and 1/2 years ago, each year has been an uphill battle. To make a VERY long story short, I am not the same person I was when I started school. I am emotionally broken and burned-out. I suffer from depression and anxiety, both of with are becomming progressively more severe with each semester. I have three more years ahead of me (I'm in a 7-year doctoral program), but I just don't know if I can make it through 3.5 more years. I am already seeing a therapist, but it doesn't seem to help. In two weeks, I will receiving my bachelor's, and I am now faced with a decision I need to make sensibly. I have two options:

1. The first option is to continue for 3.5 more years and by some miracle actually survive. But at this point, I'm no longer enjoying my college years (I've actually never felt like I've enjoyed them to be honest).

2. Or, I could just take my bachelor's, move back home, and try to get my life back on track and improve my physical/mental/emotion state and self-confiedence. I know I'll be giving up the pursuit of a great degree, but I also know that I'm not well and am killing myself slowly trying to continue on. Although I feel like I'm in a black hole, I also have a sense of hope and I know that if I stop school now and take a break, I will still be able to find a job. Plus, when I start to feel better, I'll be able to pursue my PhD in a healthier way and potentially enjoy my education!!!

It's ironic b/c I have a nearly perfect GPA yet feel completely dissatisfied. And now I am trying to figure out what I need to do to get my life back on track. I'm not interested in having the highest GPA in my class...it's not about quantity, it's quality. But my quality of life is so poor right now, and I am starting to scare my family (and myself...I've never felt so lost and hopeless in my life).

Please help guide me on my journey with your insight! I would really appreciate a "neutral" opinion! Thank you!!