Thank you guys for your support, and for just listening. It did help to get the feelings out and share them here.

I'm surprised that this is a common response to disclosure. But, it also helps to know that it is 'normal' response for many people, and it is not just me. I think today I am more disappointed and the anger has subsided.

I have been working on this with T, spent many months processing, until I decided it was time to write the letter. I felt it was an important step to take, and unfortunately held on to the hope that it might change something. What a lesson about expectations...

I know I can heal without the support of my family. I know they may not have the tools or understanding to meet me where I am. It is just sad.

Thanks again for the kind words! Now, the challenge is to focus on my gratitudes, and to somehow find compassion for my mother. Wish me strength...