((((((((kissfru))))))) I'm so sorry you are feeling like this. There are many times I feel terribly alone and down even when there are a lot of people around. Over Labor Day I went with my parents, sister and her husband and two kids and my two kids to my brother-in-law's cabin at a lake. I was feeling down because I had just ended a 9 year relationship about 3 months earlier and everyone thought it would be good for me to go down there, so I did. I sat on the dock listening to everyone laugh and have fun and I was miserable. I also felt out of place at our family reunion in the summer. I don't know why we sometimes feel like this--out of place amongst our own families, alone in a crowed place. Please know you are not alone; though I have no solution for you, I just wanted you to know you are not alone.