Hey. I'm sorry you are feeling like that.

There is hardly any useful advice I can give youo.. but at least I'll try to briefly answer some questions.
I'm not making a choice to live.. I'm just not doing anything to stop living, which is good.. they say. I would click "no" if there was this windows-like yes/no question every morning at 600AM, but there is none.
Nothing motivates me to make an effort in life - I just follow my checkpoints. You know.. Sleep-Work-Sleep-Repeat scenario because everything else causes trouble. I don't think - I just do.
I have to get out of the bed every morning to go to the toilet

,then stop my headache - coffee does the job, then I'm trying to work to keep myself busy.
Yes, deep inside I want to live, but definitely not like this. Not even close.
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Originally Posted by theama
I don't want to die, but I don't understand why I should live either.
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Yes, I remember the feeling. Unfortunately my question is much more specific now.