Hey again:
No, it's was only 9 years of therapy. The "20 years" since the video games! I'm not diagnosed with anything, really just wanted relationship therapy, just to get me through the difficult times, to help me understand the people in my life, to understand myself, to make sure I am a good person and that I am making good choices for myself.

Do you have a therapist? When someone is self-conscious like you seem to be, I would think it would be helpful to have someone you can get to know, who can help you reassure yourself. I would think it would be hard to tackle that problem by yourself. I know that the people on this board can all tell you that you're not stupid and useless (because you're not!), but sometimes it's more meaningful to hear it from a real person who knows you. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Or any of your teachers? Or people who work in your church or anything like that?

Your friend,
LMo

We are ALL going to be a-ok!